Ok, I know that we hear the comparisons between our relationship with the Father and our relationship with our children all the time...but I couldn't help but dwell on this last night...
Mason's new reaction to us telling him to do ANYTHING is to say "no" and run away or get mad and try to fight with us (physically and verbally!). It's frustrating because he's really starting to act like a 2 year old. He doesn't want to do anything I say, he just wants to do what he wants to do. I know that I'm making the right decisions for him and watching out for his best interests, but he doesn't care about that...so he fights. With all he's got, he fights. And as it happened last night, it hit me - this is my child...he's just like me...
See, I wrestle with God about a lot of things. I wish I could say that I just listen and do as I'm told, but I don't. I fight with all that I have if I don't want to do it. Just recently, I argued with God for a year and a half about something silly and trivial. I finally gave in and I could just feel the release of that tension between us. I get so tired and worn out in my day to day life and I wondered last night how differently I would feel if I stopped fighting Him. I know He sees the big picture and is looking out for His best interests which, in turn, are my best insterests. I know that my life will be better (or at least more productive for the Kingdom) if I just stop fighting and start listening. So here's to no more excuses...I know His voice when I hear it, but I choose to ignore it too often because it is uncomfortable or inconvenient to listen to it. So I'm asking those of you reading this to keep me accountable to this.
I've told lots of people about some things that God's really been working on me about and I want to hold those things up. I want to leave a legacy of a faithful woman who followed her God wherever He leads her, no matter what.
